The other day I was remembering Annie Lamott, a favorite author of mine, and her tales of waking up out of addiction and ending the cycle of self-abuse.
I have to chuckle when she describes the inner voice that’s so mean, radio station KFCK was the first way I heard it described.
She also calls it KRAP….a little less cuss-word oriented but it still gets the message across.
If you’re on the Eating Peace notes, you’ll recognize it in my message in my video yesterday.
The main idea in this message, noticing this voice?
Noticing that we also have a kind, generous, loving voice within.
It’s been there the whole time.
Perhaps not even a voice all the time, but a feeling, an observing view, a sense of inner silence that is not disturbed and not freaking out. Ever.
Do you know what I mean?
The radio station KFCK or KRAP can sometimes chatter away so loudly, you don’t recognize this quieter voice.
And yet, this seemingly more silent voice is deep, steady, unbothered, and eternal.
It’s the radio station L-O-V-E.
That sounds super sugary corny perhaps, but it’s true.
Funny how we don’t spend a lot of time, at least I sure didn’t, listening to that LOVE radio station instead of the other one.
But don’t worry, even if you haven’t listened to it much, or you’ve gone way off track, or gone haywire thinking very negative and disturbing thoughts, or lost the signal for love entirely…..
…..you never have.
You can connect with it right now.
Who would you be without believing what you think is true, especially the brutal thoughts, or the criticisms from other people, or anything you don’t like hearing?
Who would you be without the thought you’ve made a mistake, you’re wrong, you shouldn’t be thinking negatively, you’re not measuring up, you didn’t succeed, you’re lacking something, you’re nothing important, your mind is right?
Who would you be without beliefs about other people and how annoying, sad, needy, irritating or bothersome THEY are?
Like….what would it be like if you just had no thoughts of being against it all, no brain putting out an inner voice, deciding things, assessing and commenting on everything as if its worrisome or irritating?
What’s a flower like? Or a tree? Or a bird?
Here you are being yourself, which includes having a mind that runs off in various directions…..
…..but what if you just didn’t get all worked up and involved?
If you let the kind, tender, compassionate voice be the louder one for right now, without trying to fight against the other ones?
“You know quite well, deep within you, that there is only a single magic, a single power, a single salvation…and that is called loving. Well, then, love your suffering. Do not resist it, do not flee from it. It is your aversion that hurts, nothing else.” ~ Herman Hesse
Now that’s relaxing. And loving. And kind.
Much love, Grace